Seeking for Love

Why is there always this feeling in me to search for love. To search for someone to love me. It seems that any love given to me is never enough. It doesn't fill me, doesn't make me stay.. I keep struggling to hold on to something but I ran out of reasons, I become constricted, constrained.. Is it an avarice for love that keeps me feeling like this or have I not found the one who truly loves me? All my life I have always heard the words.. "i love you".. They seem to sound true sometimes, but other times they just come as sounds, familiar sounds of long ago, voices of need, articulations of desires, a soothing proclamation of something in return, an echo of someone needing something from me. I fall for it a lot. I even cry in silence or weep on my own. I wish them to be true but I cannot make them truer than that of which the lips quaver. What haunts me? What keeps me? What is it all about? Is there a silence more quiet than the stillness of my yearnings? What is such discontment made of? What is there more than love? Is it love even?

Hold me... Keep me.. let me go and maybe... love me too...