Hainaku

I have a penchant for jerks. I do not know why but several times I have been out with jerks. Once I went out with a guy who was so nice when he asked me out to go to watch a movie, I ran into the bathroom and screamed. We went to the mall to watch a movie, he was sweet and stuff, he even got me a shawl because I was feeling cold before we went into the cinema. It was almost romantic, but at the end of the night, when he dropped me home, he wanted me to go to his hotel room. It blew up everything. Sad.

My ex boyfriend asked me to marry him. Are guys so stupid that they do not make things beautiful?? Some men think that just because they ask a woman to marry them, they can take them to bed. Like hello?? Arent you supposed to be going out with that someone first? Or share several other things or activities with that person? And yes he was a jerk because he blew it up when he asked me to marry him. Most proposals happen romantically, a guy on bended knee with a cabinet, a ring, a scepter, or a chopstick or a calculator, or even a broom on his hand saying "Will you marry me?" or "Will you be my wife?" Oh how sweet. Almost. But nope. he didnt do any of those. I for one knows that maybe even if you don't really ahve strong feelings for a man, if he is sweet, nice thoughtful adn romantic and he will ask you on bended knee and with all the set up, flower arrangement, ambience in a situation like that, any woman would not be able to resist saying yes because she will be too caught up in the moment. Oh sweet apple pie. Add caramel please. And cheese.

Another ex was a guy who drinks almost every night. It was a tiring experience. If only we learn and see things fast, but yes it is true, love makes us blind. We do not even see that we are making a fool of ourselves. And it lasts a long long time.

There was a suitor which I almost fell for (because he was an artist and all those crap!) , goodness gracious he was so stinky!! All I could think of was put him in a bathtub filled with soap and give him a brush-rub all day long. He stole a kiss and got a slap on the face. I got scared of him because I almost fell for him.

A friend introduced me to an Arab guy and he was calling me and when we were going out for disco he is there with us a lot. He thought and assumed that I am his girlfriend and one night he called me and mentioned it to me, I made it clear that I am not his girlfriend he said he will haunt me down to kill me. Asshole!

Another one was a stalker standing just outside my flat building checking when I come in or out.

And there was this guy who always give me a hug when he brings me home and when I told him I dont want anything more than just friends, he said he will treat me as a sister or as a best friend but instead was badmouthing me to his friends and he was mad at me for no reason. Jerk kid.

So many times I have met them and spent time with them. Some actually have nice traits, some are intellectually stimulating, others are pathetic, others are wuss, others are shy, but most of them are just kids. Yet most of them are way older than me. I rarely go out with men my age, because I always thought wisdom has got something to do with age, and particularly because older people usually have more experiences and are more interesting. But men are men mostly, just as women are women. There are women, among them are some ladies and some girls. Some are a combination of both.

As for the other jerks who have been part or partially part or slightly part of my human life, I will mention them one by one as soon as I remember.

Just that really, come one jerk, come all. Ist that it?

Am I that bad???