Dating and more... confusion?

When did going out with a guy equate sleeping with him? Do dates always have to end in bed? Do men have a ploy of actually taking a girl out and then planning to take her back to bed by the end of a date?

The most beautiful dates I remember where those times when we actually went out, talked over dinner or maybe coffee, or watched movie. I was either walked home, we chatted for a bit, or stayed at the park and then ended up with either a kiss on the cheek or an awkward silence between me and the guy because we were wondering and pondering whether a kiss was appropriate or not. And there are dates that you just imagine in your head.

The most intimate moment of a relationship that I have experienced is when I was watching tv and I feel asleep on a guys lap and woke up with a stroke of a gentle hand on my hair. This closeness is so soft, so rare and something so undefined.

Most relationships I noticed recently are just based on convenience, sexual experience and utter loneliness. Some people end up with someone because there is no one there anymore, others just jump into a relationship because they feel that the marriage wagon has left them behind, only to find out they are left in a band that is also stranded.

There are other people who go into a relationship out of spite, out of pity, out of fad. And others just date to make themselves feel good, that they are still in the market. And there are others who choose to have one night stands. Bizarre choices, weirder outcomes.

I must be missing a good date, a real date, with someone special.

I will take myself to cinnabon tonight.