Ennui

These are the times that the world is doomed. Men have run out of chivalry, but maybe there are no more women in this world. Men just wait till what comes to them and women cling to what they have for fear of being alone. Romance has gone stale, like a putrid water left in the dark. Sometimes I reach for something beautiful in my surroundings but I only find them in my imagination. Like the silence of being alone, the beauty of knowing that you are alone and that no one will come. You can do anything you want, wear whatever you want to wear. Life has terribly gone so messy for me. Decisions that I have regretted and cannot undo. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and probably choose better options or just simply let go.

Its like a limbo now, an endless boring cycle of holding on to my sanity. Sometimes I just need to purge but hey, life sucks. Bite me!